Just some ponderin' for the moment
( The next blog will be more thought provoking, I PROMISE!)
Oh what a night! I could write a book on how many times I have called a close friend to say that. I would call A friend and talk about how wonderful the date I went on the night before was. What sparked this thought? I was sitting on my porch just pondering the things of life while random music was playing on my playlist. Every once and a while, I would listen to the song that came on and it would remind me of someone or something that happened. And then I heard "Oh what a night"
This time last year, I was in a relationship with someone. Now me being the good southern wo-MAN that I am, I would never have anyone move in with me or I move in with them. But this was different. For some reason, we moved in together. This was after maybe a MONTH of dating!( Don't ask. Some things you just think will work out!!) But it didn't work out. That's the end of that!
I after my first date with this person how I felt. The first thing that came out of my mouth when I called my friend was "Oh what a night!".
It's been a very long time since I've said that famous phrase. It has almost disappeared from my vocabulary. "Oh, what a night!Hypnotizing, mesmerizing me.He was everything I dreamed he'd be Sweet surrender, what a night!I felt a rush like a rolling bolt of thunder Spinnin' my head around and taking my body under". I can just BARELY remember that feeling.
That's thing that hurts so much. The feeling of not feeling attractive. At one time, I had the feeling that when I walked into the room, someone at least thought" What a hottie!".
I'm gonna really just vent about whats wrong with a great majority of men today. Especially men of the "Homo" persuasion. Its seems all they want is SEX! And the really sad thing is, they will do almost anything to get there. I have learned that they will lay the ground work and take as much time as it takes just get the one thing they want. They don't mind going to movies, or walking on the beach, or dinner and they will swear on everything that they don't want to have sex until you're ready. And then there you are, one to many glasses of wine. And there are pour more into the glass...
Sorry, a bad flashback......
But where are those who want only to get to know you and spend time with you? Those that have no ulterior motives?Those that look at you and think " What an awesome person" not " I wonder if I'm gonna get some?" And for those who say to me " No, I really don't want anything more than just to get to know you", It will take a long time for me to believe that. You can thank every other one that has not lived up to that statement before.
It's sad, isn't it? This strange and funny new definition of Love!
Oh, what a night!
Antony
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