Just some thoughts tonight about Christmas memories.
It's hard not having mother here with my this Christmas. Last Christmas, I was in Illinois with Kathy. That was good, but I was running from my feelings. The Christmas before that, I was alone in my apartment. My Godparents and I were having a little disagreement.
This , to me, it my first Christmas without Mother. Thanksgiving, I was working and I then I slept. I went to Colecta's later and ate with her family.
Around this time of year, Mother and I would start decorating for Christmas. I still remember each Christmas ornament, wreath, the Plastic Poinsettias that Adorned the dining room. Everything was just the same. The candles in the windows.
I was telling Colecta I remember the Old 45 Christmas records that mother would play while we decorated. A good portion of my life, she was in a wheelchair, so I would do a lot the decorating by myself (with her direction, of Course). I remember that she always wanted my birth mother, her granddaughter, to be with us. And so did I. But I can remember only one Christmas that she was with us and its kinda painful to go there.
And now here I am. A Christmas in a new place, with new people. Without Mother......
More to come
"Through the years We all will be together, If the Fates allow...."
Antony
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