It's still a wonderful life

Im sitting here getting rady to go back to the urgent care place and check on Colecta. I cant believe there is only 3 hours left in 2007. Time passes by so quickly. This time last year, I was walking around New york city with my friend Savanna.

So much has happen since then. Good and bad but mostly good. I am so thankful that I here at this point in my life. I do have so much to be thankful for. I have learned many lessons and I will remember them as I go into the new year. I have had some hard times. But the fact that I am still here proves that God is real and only wants the best for me and all His Children. I have let go of a lot of things and people who werent good for my life.

So my Prayer is that God will continue to be the Leader of my life. One things mother always told was this:
Work like you don't need money, Love like you've never been hurt, and Dance like no one's watching.

Love you all. Have a blessed New year
Remember, it still is a wonderful life
Antony
http://antonylarry.blogspot.com

Tomorrow

"Hang on till tomorrow... Come what may."

Truly do love you, tomorrow. Tomorrow is that day of new beginnings. It brings new adventures. It may bring happiness or maybe sadness. But whatever it brings, It will be worth waiting for. I know that in my life there have been times when I didnt want to see tomorrow and a long time ago, there was a time when I tried to make sure I wouldnt see tomorrow but Thank God I did get to see tomorrow.

We Go through low points in our life to learn a lesson.. Whatever the lessons may be. Im so glad that I can say "Tomorrow, I love ya tomorrow, you're always a day away."

See y'all Tomorrow

Antony

http://antonylarry.blogspot.com

I Am changing

I will have a blog up soon. But right now thing truly my prayer and Plee to God

Look at me
Look at me
I am changing, tryin' every way I can
I am changing, I'll be better than I am
I'm trying-to find a way to understand
But I need you, I need you-I need a hand

I am changing, seeing everything so clear now
I am changng, I'm gonna start right now, right here
I'm hoping to work it out, and I know that I can
But I need you, I need a hand

All my life I've been a fool
Who said I could do it all alone
How many good friends have I already lost
How many dark nights have I known

Walking down that wrong road, there was nothing I could find
All those years of darkness-can make a person blind
But now I can see

I am changing, tryin every way I can
I am changing, I'll be better than I am
But I need a friend-to help me start all over again,
oh-that would be just fine
I know it's fonna work out this time
'Cause this time I am-This time I am

I am changing, gonna get my life together now
I am changing, yes, I know how
I'm gonna start again, I'm leaving my past behind
I'll change my life-I'll make a vow
And nothing's gonna stop me now...hey

Christmas??

Well here I am sitting at home alone. Not really sure how to feel. I cant believe that Christmas is in a week. I am not all in the Christmas mood. I want it to go away. I feel like that Christmas is being celebrated and I'm not involved in it. It's kind of like when you walk into a room and everyone is talking about something and you're not involved in the conversation. The only time I really feel the True meaning of Christmas is on Sunday Morning. When I hear the Message, I feel closer to Christmas. But the minute I leave, it's like Christmas is Gone. I'm not a big rap fan, but recently I am. Why? Because, for some reason, it's very hard for me to listen to Christmas music. I keep Asking:

Where are you Christmas? Why can't I find you? Why have you gone away?

My world is changing. I'm re-arranging. Does that mean Christmas changes too?

Where are you Christmas?

Do you remember The person you used to know?

You and I were so carefree! Now nothings easy.

Did Christmas change or just me?

Antony

http://antonylarry.blogspot.com/

Lean on who?

Ok. Just to start this out, I have never been rich. But there was a time when I didnt have to worry a whole bunch about money. There was a time when I wouldn't go to certain stores in town because that just wasnt where good "Kinds" of people shopped.

I remember several times during my high school life my Friend( And former Choir teacher) Kathy said " One Day, God's gonna humble you". And he has. Especially since I have moved to Orlando.

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain

We all have sorrow But if we are wise

We know that there's always tomorrow

Not gonna go into to much detail, but this month I had a lot of bills and things that needed to be done.( Especially the root canal) and so that left money a little tight. Well last night, Had enough money in my bank account. So my plan for today was to get my haircut and do my necessary shopping. Well This Morning there was negative balance in my account. It was my fault but I didnt think that everything would come out all at the same time.

So no haircut.

But these things have been happening and it's hard for me at first. But like today, I heard a song that I have heard many times before however, I always thought of it in a different way. But Today I heard God saying : Lean on me.

Why did my account go in the red? Why am I living paycheck to Paycheck? Why did mother have to die when I wasn't yet an adult?

The Answer is right in Front of me. God's telling me: Lean on me

If there is a load you have to bear That you can't carry I'm right up the road I'll share your load If you just call me

And you know that what we are suppose to do. Talk to God and lean on our friends. And we also need to be there for each other.

But I know that there's always tomorrow. So Im gonna listen to what God is telling me. Im gonna lean on him.

Antony

http://antonylarry.blogspot.com

Thats life!

I was talking to my friend Stephanie today and we we're talking about where we were in 2006. I remember at the beginning of the 2007, I discovered the Song " Thats Life" by Frank Sinatra. I loved the words. The words so were inspirational. To make along story short, It just talks about life's ups and downs. I was having a hard time emotionally, physically, mentally, Financially, Etc. It showed me that life wasn't fair. But it was worth a try. However, I was shocked by the end of the song. After all the great, "Go get her" words, the end simple says "But if there's nothing shakin' come this here july, I'm gonna roll myself up in a big ball and die .My, My"

This song kinda became my anthem. I told myself that if nothing happen for me by July 2007, I knew that I was just gonna be worth nothing and I should stop chasing my dream. But you know how God works, My Contract with Walt Disney Entertainment took effect On June 1, 2007.

That Truly is life( And God!)

Regards,

Antony

http://antonylarry.blogspot.com

Finally back!

Well I just got home from the funeral. The Last cousin and oldest member is gone. Today wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. There was actually some healing between the family. I'm tired. I will blog more tomorrow.

Thank y'all for all the support that has been given to me recently.

Regards,

Antony

http://antonylarry.blogspot.com

I'm sure I will be singing....

Hey y'all!

Once again, I'm gonna let y'all in a personal part of my life. Tonight, I went to see the Candlelight Processional( Which I sing in but I didn't tonight). The Kids that I use to Direct at Middle burg High School In Jacksonville were there and they kicked butt! I'm so proud of them. But tonight, as I was listening to the concert( The "Hallelujah Chorus" By Handel to exact), I received a series of Phone calls. A couple was from very distant family that haven't talked to in years. But then my Godmother called.( She is like my mother now). She was calling to tell me that My Cousin Lee had died.

Now you must understand that this cousin not my age. Actually, she was 2 generations ahead of me. I was raised by my great-grandmother(who I refer to as mother). Growing up, I knew that mother's circle of Family was: Uncle Thomas( The one who was a very short man in stature and as long I had known him, was very old). Uncle Thomas was very funny. He died when I was in the 5th or 6th grade. I sang at his funeral. (and his wife's funeral Aunt Cora who got me addicted to Soap Opera's at the age of 5).

And then there was Aunt Bill( Willie Mae..Bill for Short) She was the sweet one! I sang at her Funeral.

And then There was Cousin Lee. Never Married. My skin Complexion( A lot of black people call it 'High Yella"). She was the feisty one. Always a loner. Never had Kids. Didn't care what she said. (Apparently she had always been like this.)

To make a long story short, This is all the family I had: My Birth mom who is so Strung out on drugs, that she doesn't know who I am. (She isn't doing Drugs anymore, but the drugs have done permanent damage.) Her Parent's are dead.

My Birth Mom has 2 brothers. One is gay and Won't have anything to do with me( because he was "Banned from the Family") and the Other is Mentally retarded.

So lets recap: I have Distant cousins (that Mother raised) that don't talked to me(for reason I'm sure I will discuss later), A mother that's brain is so fried that she doesn't know her own son. And 2 Uncle's that are in there own world.

Cousin Ida Lee was the last of the Generation of Mother. She was all of my true "Immediate" family I had left.

And On December 5th, 2007, she went to be with everyone else. And here I am. I'm ok but

I'm sure I will be singing at her funeral.

Antony

http://antonylarry.blogspot.com