Wayfaring Stranger

Wayfaring stranger
I know my way is hard and steep..I'm Just a Wayfaring stranger

Its Monday. The beginning of the week. Today, I had a lot of stuff to do. Very important things. Things that I've had to do but haven't thought about. The reason is, I didn't want to face reality.
Without getting into to much detail. I have to buy a car. Its not a Want it's a MUST. My truck was owned by my Godmother who died in January and It wasn't paid for. I've got to get a car or wake up one day and my truck will be gone.

I've prayed about it. Given it to God. Taken it back. Given it to God, Taken it back (repeat several times). And now the time has come that I must do something. I also need to move. When My godmother was alive, I had a cushion. I knew that I could count on her to help me. She Co-signed on my Apartment and helped me get to where I am today. She was always there for me no matter. Gay or not. Chasing a dream or sitting at home.
Today, When I tried to get a car, I got some bad news. I tried to get my car from the place where people who can't get a car from anywhere else go. They help everyone. There help for me was $2300 down payment and $320 a month. Not including Insurance.( I have a driving record that is not good at all!)
My Friend Kathy use to tell me that one day God would humble me. I was never a Snob but some things I just said I would never do. I didn't think that I would have to do things like this. I never thought I would live from Paycheck to Paycheck or Think that Coupons were like Gold. But I do. And I love the Dollar store.
God started Humbling me when I was 17 when Mother died and I had to make a DRAMATIC cut back. And now here at 21 with no family or cushion, I have some hard decisions and cut backs to make.
But when reality hits, we must remember: God has brought us or allowed us to come to this point of our lives for a reason. I do believe...Not believe....I KNOW a God who has done so much for me and laid down His own Son for me, Did not bring me this far to leave me now. He's going to pick up this Wayfaring Stranger and give him a ride to where he needs to be.
Just A wayfaring Stranger,

Antony