A few seconds of thrill!

So this blog is a little bit different from my other blogs. I'm going to talk about something use to be a very sacred thing in society.... SEX!

So what prompted me to talk about this? Yesterday, an old friend sent me a message. At first, it started out like usual, talking about whats going on with life and stuff and then it shifted. He said he wanted to have sex.
My response was: I'm not really looking for sex.

Well what did I say that for?!? I got accused of everything in the book and called everything but a child of God!

I wasn't going to reply and just " Let go and let God" but I have to much of my mother inside of me to do that.

I explained to him that I have been single now for while. Approaching the two year mark.
He wanted to know what that has to do with having sex. "You are just a snob. A goodie good!"

At this time, I was ready to lay down my protestant, Good United Methodist woman religion and tell him to kiss my ass but then decided he might like that to much!

Before I go on, I want to make it public that I have my fair share of sex. Been there! Done that! Got the penicillin to prove it!( Just kidding!!!) But being single for so long and developed a deeper relationship with God, I don't feel the need to have sex for fun.

Call me old fashion, but I believe that sex is something sacred and is a beautiful gift from God in order to bring two people together in intimacy, to bind the love between them In this context it leads to healthy relationships, joy and happiness. The lie is that sex is a commodity to be bought and sold, to degrade, to use for pleasure and play as a game. This beautiful gift is corrupted into a lie for what sex really is.

I can't tell you how many emotional scars I have from just " having sex". Some people can sex and it mean nothing to them, but I can't. Even when I tell myself that it means nothing, my soul feels different.

I am human just like everyone else. Pleasure is a good thing but, as my Godmother use to say, " Is a few seconds of thrill worth bein' hurt over?"

No. It's not. I'm no better than anyone else. However, until I find someone who I care about enough to open up my whole self and give them not just the intimacy of my body but also my soul, I guess I will be not be having sex.

So to that person who wants to just have sex, I know just the person you can do it with: YOURSELF!

Antony