See, I am making all things new!

Last week, I had to somethings that I really wasn't looking forward to. I had to go back to my "Hometown" of Green Cove Springs, Florida and get things in order. I had to tie up loose ends that came as a result of my Godmothers' death.

Going back to this place bring up old memories, good and bad. From the time I left Orlando till the time I got there, my heart was racing! My mind was in a million different places. I was going back to a place I haven't been to in almost a year. A place where I had seen the people I love die. The place where I saw anguish of people who couldn't get ahead. High school friends who now sell drug or are addicted to them. But most of all, my very own birth-mother.

I hadn't seen her in a very long time. It's hard for me because of how bad drugs has messed her up. We embraced and spoke for all of 5 minutes because their was just nothing to talk about that she could understand. What she did say was " Don't cry, Ant. Be Strong. Don't cry". If you know me, that just made the water works fly.

I will talk about the trip more later.

Something that has been running through my mind over and over again is a verse from Revelation(The book of The Bible I can't make it through). It seems every time I am so depressed, when I just want to give up, I hear

"See, I am making all things new"

This verse, on the surface, speaks of what will supposedly happen in the end days and is also used a lot at funeral to talk about life after death.

"He will wipe every tear from their eyes," John writes. Not simply each and every one of our tears, but each and every kind of tear that streaks our cheeks and wets our pillows. Tears of sorrow will be wiped away as will tears of shame. Tears of anger, bitter tears will be wiped away. Tears pleading for justice ignored and tears anguishing over disappointment and regret. They will all be wiped away.

The thing that keeps me sane is believing that God is allowing all these things to happen because is making me new. Without going through all the crap that we have gone through, we could feel new. We couldn't feel that we have learned anything.

Can you see the new things just over the horizon? I can. They may be blurred or just a shadow but they are there.

Hold on to the belief that things that happen in life are making you new. Restoring you. Honestly, that is the ONLY reason I am holding on. If it weren't for that, life would be just a joke.

"See, I am making all things new!"

Antony