"If today was your last day and tomorrow was to late could you say goodbye to yesterday? Would live each moment like your last? "
These are questions friends normally only ask each other when they've been drinking.(Nothing out of the ordinary for us ;-) Actually she sang this song in church.
When she sang this song I thought it sounded great. It wasn't until I was having a "moment" earlier this week that I actually thought about the words. If I knew that tomorrow I was going to kick the bucket, buy the farm, eat the tuna salad (Or whatever euphemism you want to use to describe Death), what would I do differently today? What would really matter?
And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?Let me start by saying: Life happens, kiddos and there are some things that you just can't avoid and you shouldn't. They are things that you must face head on. However, there are many things on our minds that are just not worth thinking about. Jesus! If knew I had 24 hours to live, would this woman who called me a bitch because she is jealous really matter? Would the fact that I spent just a little to much on something I shouldn't have really matter? Would the constant cheerfulness of the costume lady in my dressing room at 7:30 AM really matter?(Yes...I just wanna slap her!) I don't think so!
If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
If I was to die tomorrow, the small stuff wouldn't matter. I will have wasted my last day worrying about all these little things while not doing what I really want to do. I knew that. The question that remained was: Why? Why do I still worry over these things? Why do I make the same mistake everyday? How do I move forward?
I read the lyrics, something popped out at me:
each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride
And there it was: That first step you take is the longest stride. Ding!! The light went off(It was way to late in the evening and if I died the next day, I would have been screwed but I didn't so.... woo-hoo!) If we can get past that first step and recognize this "problem" and weigh it on the grand scale, then we can move past it. I asked myself if these things actually matter in the whole picture? When I answered myself, I realized that things I actually needed to carry with me were not going to leave me but in time, these little things would leave me. I think I'd rather get rid of them now. That way, I would have more room to focus on the things that would carry me through to tomorrow and be worth of my last day.
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side
What if today was our last day?
Antony
