"I think we're lost"

"I'm lost!"

I don't think I have ever heard a man actually utter those words.

Well this man has!

I can't believe this week is over! It's been such a great week! My birthday was Monday(March 8, 19xx). It has been so much fun! I've only had to slap 3 people for asking my age. I've felt so loved and reassured that people care about me for who I am. I have been brought to tears at least 9 times this week!

Have you ever felt "lost"? I don't mean physically(we've all been lost at one time or another). I mean mentally. That feeling of not knowing the next step or direction. It really sucks! You're standing there going " uh.....". 

For me, this is nothing new. I'm sure you can think of this first time you've felt this way. The first time for me was in high school when I came out of the closet and then didn't know what to do next with my gay, beautiful self :-) .

When my Godmother died in 2008, my life was over. There wasn't going to ever be any direction! God wasn't in the picture or the forecast. There was no hope!

Then came that birthday. I wanted to stay in my room, away from anything reminiscent of "Celebrating". But then this mob showed up at my door step with torches and booze in hand, chanting. That night, we painted the town! Lawd knows we did! They were with me, behind me, in front of me, supporting me!

This year was no different. Like that birthday in 2008, the day after I still felt lost but I was reassured that people were with me. I may be lost, but friends were with me down that unknown road, laughing, crying, cursing, with me. 

I am thankful that God has put people in our lives that just by saying " Hello"or sharing a smile or a hug, show us that no matter how lost we are we are not alone.

Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,
Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone. 

Antony