..It was only the beginning

I never thought that I would would survive as long as I have. It all happen so fast. A girl entered the room with an envelope that looked to have pictures in it. The phone rang and my best friend Kathy went into the office to answer it. I stopped teaching the class to greet the girl at the door. I instructed them to look over their music. The girl handed me the envelope with a smile on her face. I replied with a thank you. I turned around to go back to teaching the class and saw Kathy come out of the office. I could see by the look in her eyes and the redness of her face that she was fighting back tears. Everyone in the class knew something was wrong...except me. She walked towards me and said we needed to talk outside. As we walked toward the double doors, my mind knew this wasn't good news. After we stepped outside, she said "Antony.." . She paused and began to choke up. "She's gone to heaven". I just stood there for a moment in disbelief. So many thoughts ran through my head. I screamed. I screamed so loud that a teacher from the classroom next to  us walked out to see what was wrong. It was at that moment I realized that I would never be what I thought was "normal" again. It was at that moment that I realized my heart had been full even though I always thought it wasn't. That was the moment I realized my heart had a lost a place that could never be filled. It was the beginning of heartache. It was the beginning of pain that never stops. It was.....life.